Friday, September 17, 2010

What I don't miss

I was on the subway yesterday morning on my way to work, reading my book with headphones in, just minding my own business. As we got closer to the city this couple got on the train, and what started as a semi-quiet, kept to themselves argument, turned into a full blown fight. I'm talking yelling at one-another loudly, the guy hitting one of the poles because he got so angry, just an all out fight on the middle of the train. I try to just mind my own business on the trains since there are quite a few weirdos in this city, but everyone was watching this fight. You just couldn't help but stare. I don't even know exactly what the fight was about, she was mad at him for not taking the day off from work, and then she couldn't go into work at that point because she forgot her phone...really it made no sense, but they were both LIVID with one another, and you could tell neither person was going to win that argument anytime soon. They ended up getting off at Grand Central and continued their argument, but it really got me thinking.

I definitely don't miss that at all! I don't fight anymore, I don't have to worry about the drama, or putting someone else's happiness above mine. I get to do what I want, when I want to do it. Granted, in all the relationships I've ever been in, I've never been in a fight that had gotten that out of hand, and I would never let someone treat me that way. As an onlooker for only a few moments I could tell that it was a very unhealthy relationship, and I don't know about you, but I'd much rather be in no relationship, than one that is unhealthy.

I've been single for 3 1/2 years now (minus a few month relationship back in February), and though there have been times where I've missed the companionship, the comfort of having someone by my side, I've realized that I deserve a lot. I deserve a man that will spoil me, and take care of me after a long day of work. I may have been single for over 3 years, but that's because I refuse to settle for someone that is less than I deserve. And though at times I may miss being in a relationship, I certainly don't miss the fighting!

1 comment:

  1. I totally agree. I'd rather spend another three years alone that to be in a bad relationship just so that I don't have to be alone. Everything you invest and give up to be in such a dysfunctional relationship is just not worth it! :-) Good blog. Nothing like crazy people on the subway ha ha

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